I have this class where we all sit for 2 hours and listen to our lecturer talk about “leadership”. It’s more of a self-help type of class, in which we are graded on our ability to search within ourselves and find purpose for our lives. Seriously, one of the best classes I have ever had, but it has caused me to think hard about what I am doing with my life and what I would like to do in the future.
I have come to the realisation, over the past couple of weeks, that University just isn’t what I want to be doing, but I feel kind of stuck. Do I stick with it, knowing I don’t want to be here and regretting the decision to stay, or do I try and find a job?
If I look for work, how will I find a career that I enjoy without the qualifications needed to get me in the door?
But I don’t want to just stop at getting a job. I feel I need to do something great with my life. Maybe that’s starting a business, maybe it’s something completely un-related to work. I don’t know, but I have a fire within me, an energy, that needs an escape. I just have no idea what that will look like yet.
I do know that Uni is not where this will happen, nor is it a place that is going to help me on my journey (official qualification wise). I feel like I’m here, just doing what is expected of me so I can get into a mid-level job, with a mid-level income. I don’t feel as though this is going to lead to anything spectacular, which is where I am going…
While I feel like this, it is actually my class at Uni which has given birth to this thinking. The first lecture of this class, we were told the purpose of the class was to help us question our existence, to question why we do what we do. Essentially, we were told to have a “mid-life crisis” by the end of the year so we could begin to get to where we need to be.
The only thing is that I have been feeling like this for a few years now… and I don’t feel like I’ve gotten anywhere.
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